Afraid of change?

This was the word that hit me. Afraid of change? Afraid to venture into the unknown? Into oblivion? Out of your comfort zone? Out of the familiar? This is what i've been asking myself. If God wants me to go somewhere else, do something else, STEP OUTTA MY COMFORT ZONE, will i be able to do it? Life's full of surprises. Take the next corner and you'll never know where you'd end up. I guess, none of us wants to live a life of mystery. At least not me. So i think, if God really really really wants me to move, i'll always keep in mind Jer 29:11 and trust Him with all that i have. Big Daddy God, I know the plans that You have for me. And i know You know what's best. So God, reveal to me Your Eternal Plan for my life so that i'll take the right steps in You. Amen. :)

Today's been a pretty good day. Actually, more of a hungry day. You see, i'm on fast every friday. And i'm telling you, it's no fun. This really ignites the thought of how in the world did Jesus do it, 40 days!? I'm so tempted to think that because He's the Son Of God that He was able to accomplish such a mind-boggling task. Contrary to that, He was God's Son in a humanoid form, subjected to the everyday temptations, trials and tests. So obviously, He had a lot of discipline to carry out the task at hand which was fasting diligently. Jesus. What a wonder of a man. :) I pray so so hard that i'll become more and more like Him as my life unfolds. Anyways, broke fast at 6 pm. I'm telling you. Good ol' donuts really tasted like manna from heaven man. Actually, i ate so much after that fast, i feel really guilty bout it all! Oh well, i guess fasting has its rewards. Jesus, I pray that you'll uphold me through my fasting and help to reach the ultimate goal of being sanctified for Your Glory. Amen. :) Played pool with Kahwan and Sam from 4 pm - 6 pm. Food is a driving force. Without it, i was seriously drained and had a hard time playing. But oh well, its for the love of the game and not competition. Went for central equipping in the evening till bout 10. Bill Johnson spoke through a video. Spoke on the spiritual language. Thank You Lord for being so wonderfully special in the way You speak to us. :) Thank You Lord for answering my prayer. Amen! OH! and today was Uncle KK's birthday. Happy Birthday Uncle! Uncle KK has really been a source of strength for me, always being that pillar of support when i needed one. :) Had supper with him and the rest which was promptly followed by countless games of bridge till bout 2 am. Really had loads of fun today. Though i really think i need to get my lazy bones moving and start asking people out! Staying at home all day ain't a good way to spend my holidays!

Tomorrow's gonna be a long long day man. Got worship prac at 1. Songs to be played are Hosanna, For a thousand tongues to sing, Heart of worship and lastly with all i am. I'm really not too sure how's it all gonna be. Considering this is my very first time playing! Woo-hoo! I pray that i'll bring Glory to God above. Thank You Lord for the talent. :) Starting at 8, i'll be playing at White Tangerine, Paya Lebar Kovan CC. Please do come down! And bring your support with you! Good Night! :) May the Good Lord God bless each and everyone of you.

Songs for the day: Sleeping to dream - Jason Mraz, Belle - Jack Johnson, Hosanna - Paul Baloche, Surrender - Hillsong, Thank You Lord - Paul Baloche.

Plans and purposes

ok. I'm gonna start blogging. Although i always thought this was downright stupid and the kind of things you don't keep after awhile(probably gonna happen with me), but still i think this is the only way i can ever pen down the thoughts constantly floating around in my head and keeping me up all night. righteous. HERE WE GO THEN!
So i guess i'm gonna have to introduce myself. right. I'm James, 17 and going on to 18 this year. Currently studying at Temasek Polytechnic where i am doing a diploma in Hospitality and Tourism. Although, i don't really like the course. After this, i'll wanna do a degree in mass communications. A passion really. ok. about me. I'm an outgoing person. Rather friendly if you ask the guy in the mirror. Although, like they say, the happiest people are also the saddest. Or if you might, what's on the outside is not always the same as the inside! I'm a person who really bottles everything up.(Hence this blog!) Well mainly because, i think the world has got its share of problems and it doesn't need another to further add on! so i'm contented keeping everything in. Although sometimes, you know, well, it gets too much! That's when i try my very best to turn to God. Like pray and pray and pray till i feel better. Friends also help ease the burden. True blue bros whom i know will stick by me till the end of this life and onto the next where we'll all stand hand in hand praising the awesomeness that is our Father. I guess as this blog progresses, you'll be able to find out a lil more about me.

OK! Well today was another bumming day for me. But i came across a really good book. A legacy for my sons. Awesome awesome awesome. It talks about how one man, being too busy for his sons, decides to write a book, a letter if you will, to his sons. Teaching them the lessons in life. I wouldn't consider this a christian book although there are plenty of biblical referencing. Overall, a must-have for the journey of life! What really grabbed my attention was the chapter on pretty ladies/marriage. It says that never choose a pretty lady for a wife, for vanity and beauty do not last forever. On one hand, i've gotta agree with the statement as vanity and beauty really do not last! Just look at people like the rolling stones. On the other, what if The One is pretty?? I mean what if the lady you are destined to be with is someone with the likes of Jennifer Aniston? This just blows me away. The writer then goes on to say that Proverbs 31 would give the answer to a perfect wife. This i gotta agree with. Although some of the criteria in this chapter really seem impossible to have.(A WIFE WHO CAN SEW!?) A women who is God fearing and truely loves The Maker above all else, is truely the most beautiful thing she can ever possess. So God i sincerely pray that You send me a women after Your Heart.
In the evening, everyone went to Tung Ling's graduation ceremony. Joanne, Lynn Ern and Jolene were graduating from a 12-week course. Just thinking about this daunting of waking up early in the morning for 12 weeks seems hard to me already. Much less go for classes like back in secondary school! So really, PROPS TO THE 3 LADIES WHO SUCCESSFULLY COMPLETED! and congratulation! Anyways, the theme of Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you", declares The Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." I feel that God has been trying to communicate this verse to me and this was kinda like a quadruple confirmation for me! Thank You God Almighty. :) The food was good. As usual, me being a food connoisseur(by my own standards), really enjoyed the sausage-on-a-stick-wrapped-in-bacon thing. Marvelous stuff. Well going home was a problem. You see, there were like 278 of us(ok. exaggeration. there were only bout 12-15 of us really.) and we had a hard time splitting people up! well in my own opinion that is. In the end, most of us took the bus back which was cool since i got to save some cash! Although i feel really bad that Sam had to go back with Beatrice and all. Not that it's bad or anything! but still, i don't know man. Just feel real bad. :( Had a nice chat with Joel after that, talked bout life as usual. :) Always a pleasure to converse with him(Any of my bros for that matter.) I guess life has so much in store for me that the only way i'm ever gonna "get-along" is to really trust 100% in My Father and the plans that He has for my life. :) Good night and sweet dreams to those who are reading.

Songs for the day: Broken - Jack Johnson, Banana Pancakes - Jack Johnson, Hosanna - Paul Baloche, Majesty - Delirious