thoughts about boys & girls

God created us so differently. boys and girls look at the same problem and go:
BOY: "Hmmm...let's see how do we solve this?"
GIRL: "Oh...let's see how we get you feeling better."

This whole difference in thinking has caused many disappointments, heartaches and unnecessary sadness. seems like there's no real cure for this except i don't know...tolerance?

easier said than done. it's so difficult to be tolerant when it's about something so opposite. such thinking is so opposite from each other.

1 Pet 3:7 says, "Husbands, likewise, dwell with them with understanding, giving honour to the wife, as to the weaker vessel, and as being heirs together of the grace of life, that your prayers may not be hindered."

i really wonder why God wrote it in such a way. dwell with understanding. He must've known our differences. yet He still made us compatible. in the great mystery which is our God, he made us compatible yet completely different. i don't know how to deal with that! how to be compatible yet different!

and there's this thing about dating. how much of yourself should you reveal or show and not scare the other party away?
ie. reveal too much, scare other party away.
reveal too little, other party doesn't know you.
Courtship is about discovering the person and seeing if the person is who you wanna marry. if so, is revealing too much a bad thing? i mean...you do need to know who're marrying before you marry. imagine after marriage if you didn't know the person! but then again, we do need to guard our hearts.
I know, i believe the answer is to do it over time. open up over time, reveal bit by bit, allow the person time to accept these issues.


i don't know why we're like that. we can't seem to understand each other. everything i say doesn't seem to come out right. everything i do seems to be the direct opposite of how its supposed to be. i'm scared. i don't wanna lose you. i think if we go on like this, we'll end up apart. that's scary.
I love you.

revive.

Haven't posted in far too long! think i'll use this blog to convey thoughts and feelings. think i need an outlet. :\

i just hope this doesn't become one of those emo blogs with all that sadness. i still want this blog to provide hope for people. :)

Be still and know that I am God.

Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God!"

Lord God, i will put my trust in You, the maker of heaven and earth. Because my heart is confident in You. For Your unfailing love is as high as the heavens. Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds. Be exalted, O God, above the highest of heavens and may Your glory shine over all the earth.
I don't know what to do, and i don't know what to expect but i know that if i trust You, You will make the impossible possibe.
Amen.

Psalm 139, Psalm 57:7-11, Psalm 56:8 and Psalm 46:10
Encourage yourself in the Lord!

God's love

Nothing you can do, can make Him love you more and nothing that you've done will ever make Him close the door.

Compromise

Will i compromise on my promises and plans?

Jesus knows you!

The greatest blessing in this world, is not knowing Jesus.
It's whether Jesus knows you.
are you saved?

The generation

Let's be the generation who will take our place.

Father of Faith

Faith is probably the greatest attribute that keeps my mind pondering.
Does Faith = self confidence?
Does having faith means having a self-fulfilling prophecy?
Believing in something so much that you subconsciously achieve it by your own means.


WELL, Hebrews 11:1 says," Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."
This means trusting in God (something we cannot see) with everything we've got. I believe this is faith. Godly faith that is.

And i find this most hard to do. Trusting in the invisible is so difficult. But yet God still asks me to trust Him. I know that trusting Him would yield much results. I know that. But time and again, i find myself doubting this very faith.

gone, going, gone!

Suddenly, i realised all my friends are leaving Singapore. People whom i've within the past 2-3 years established quite a close friendship. And although i don't show it very much, i am sad. Really bummed that i never got to know these people any better. i mean sure we're good friends and all but i just feel i could've spent an extra more time with them. i'm sad. :(

"What is your generation? is it the people who are the same age as you, or is it the people who grow up with you?"

I keep asking myself these questions and i really don't know.

If we would only keep our eyes on the goal

If we can only keep our eyes fixed on the goal at the end of the line. The prize of this long and tedious race of life.
This race of life. The one that is filled with "what-ifs" and "whys". Let's stop asking why because i believe the prize we get at the end will more than answer our queries of life. Instead let's have faith and trust that He will carry us through no matter what.

"Mummy, how did dinosaurs come about?"
"Why don't you ask God!"
"Mummy, why is the earth so big?"
"Why don't you ask God!"
"Mummy, why does humanity have to suffer pain and anguish?"
"Again, why don't you ask God!"

If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulder, i know that He can and will carry you.

Remember that you forgot

Have you ever woke up and remembered that you forgot?
Let me elaborate.
Every morning when i wake up, i always get this feeling that i forgot something. and sure enough, i did.

Work at play, play at work.

This life makes no sense without a capital G.

If it makes you less sad

I'll grow old and start acting my age. I'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate. A crown of gold, a heart thats harder than stone but it hurts a whole lot and its missed when its gone.

You are calm and reposed, let your beauty unfold. Pale white like the skin stretched over your bones. Spring keeps you ever close, you are second hand smoke. You are so fragile and thin, standing trial for your sins. Holding on to yourself the best you can. You are the smell before rain, you are the blood in my veins.

I'm saturated

I cannot think anymore!
I need inspiration!

The world's view...

You are Loved(Don't give up) - Josh Groban

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside
I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one needs to be heard
You are loved


This song reminds me of God's love. Strangely. How He loves us.

holiday or holinsane?

The past few week have been really hectic for me. Haven't been able to do anything. Rushing from point A to B, assignment after assignment. Life is such a monotony of things to do.

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31

Lord i'm waiting on you, renew my strength.

Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead,
If you could only ...

Love...actually...scary!?

There are many things that i'd like to say to you
but i don't know how.

Worthy is The Lamb

Thank you for the cross, Lord
Thank you for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love You came
And gave amazing grace

Thank you for this love, Lord
Thank you for the nail pierced hands
Washed me in Your cleansing flow
Now all I know
Your forgiveness and embrace

Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne
Crown You now with many crowns
You reign victorious

High and lifted up
Jesus Son of God
The Darling of Heaven crucified
Worthy is the Lamb
Worthy is the Lamb

Thou art worthy.
This song really ministered to me. Jesus, the lamb. Sacrificed. Lambs are of such a meek nature and it's such an apt description of Jesus. The Lamb groomed from day one for the slaughter house. Oh how worthy you are. I'm really at a loss for words.

back from camp!

just came back from camp last night. Had a smashing good time! I especially liked the word part of the camp. Really really spoke to me. Ps Glenn is someone i could relate to. Anyways, i felt this camp was significantly different. Apart from the fact that it catered to a wide spectrum of age groups, this time, there was a whole different atmosphere. Like..just different. I guess you could say there was a stronger presence of God. As yes! i honestly felt a very strong presence hovering throughout the camp. Yeah. I guess that's it! But all good things must come to an end and it's back to studying.

Today, i made a covenant
To stand up and make a difference
To be different
To lead and not follow

don't you find it hard to write words for a song when they don't mean a thing?

it's been awhile but it's been worth it!

greetings to one and all! i'm blogging with my phone. new phone see. well where do I start. so so so much has happened since I last blogged. ok. first things first. i'm legal now! right. not like i'm gonna paint the town red or anything but it's really a milestone for me. been pretty busy with everything. projects and assignments have been piling up. I think I need a personal assistant. hard to manage my time man. church work hs been good too. I 've always believed if you enjoy wht you're doing, passion in other words, you'll do it well. and I enjoy church. way more than school I tell you. but for what, that is stil very much a mystery. i'd say it's both God and friends but I don't know which one more. right so I know the model answer. but how do you actually do it! that's tough. humans are afterall creatures that crave companionship. and friends just seem to fill the temporal void. that said, there's still the God shaped hole that only He can fill. sometimes I wonder how people actualy make it to 50 without God. life is so tough even with God's help. i've been trying to reach out to this good friend of mine. he backslided a long time ago. but I just know he'll come back. till then, I will always be praying for him. alrighty then! i'll end off here. do expect more now that it's so convenient to blog :)

I need a God-filled life!

I've been thinking bout stuff lately, stuff going on in my life and stuff going to happen and stuff that has already happened. And i've got to say there's been a divine hand guiding me all along! Some call it destiny/fate. I'll prefer God's guidance and Plan for my life. He's always been there. Through my Ups and my Downs. Just that, i need to listen closely to him. We all do. He's the still small voice waiting, crying out to us. If we'd only listen.

I've been spending much too little time with God. So much so that i feel i've drifted far from Him! Although i know He's so near. Oh well. Contradictory huh. OK! i think i need to make a decision, a promise, a covenant or however you wanna call it. And commit myself to at least spending time with God 3 times a week!(I've gotta start small right!) That way, my relationship with Him will be healthy!

On a much much heavier note, my grand-dad's not doing too well. He's been battling cancer for awhile and now it's pretty much spread to his whole body, final stage. Pains me to see him in such a state. So guys and girls, please pray for him whenever you can? Let's petition this to heaven through our prayers! God will make my grand-daddy whole again! Amen!

Apart from this, God's been really good to me. Today, i picked up 4 dollars! small sum i know but it's been awhile since i've picked money! hehe. Thank God! =D School's been good. I've only got school for 3 days per week this semester. Totally awesome. And yeh. God is and will always be Good! =)

So, Cheerio to James and everyone reading. =)